Saturday, October 08, 2005
~* back agaiiinn *~
hai haii.. maap bgt uda lama skali br nulis2 lg, ehehehe.. btw skrg aku uda kul di china loohh.. jd ya gt d ini blogger tulisannya aneh2 smua gt dan aku ga ngerti jd cuma asal pencet2 dan untungnya bisa ktmu box buat nulis2, ahahaha..
ehm dsini ya gt2 la, biasa2 aja, tp asik jg si, ga da mami papi yg ngatur2.. ehehehe..
everything seems so simple just like the way it always be.. at least that's what i think about my life.. =]
[iPoEnK] *wAs JuMpiNg aRoUnd* 4:21 PM|
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Saturday, April 16, 2005
~* di balik tumpukan tgs dan ulangan *~
heuheu.. br pulang ni dr swit 17th agnes alice, si kembar.. td sempet serem deh soalnya pegi sama adit, mobil bmw trus kacanya ga da filmnyaaa.. serem kannn klo lg lampu merahhh.. duh.. untung td ga tjd apa2.. trus asik soalnya pas pulang dia ga gt tau jalan, dan tentu aja aku jg ga tau jln XP jd seru menegangkan deh nanya2 ke satpam gt, wahahhaaha.. daerahnya lmy rawan tu, di hotel ciputra, ehehhe.. peginya bareng melody jg, sahabatku tercinta, hueheue.. duh klo dipikir2, percuma jg ya klo misalnya aku bisa nyetir mobil, sama aja boong klo ga tau jalan2nya, apalagi jakarta macet di mana2 gt, klo ga tau jln 'rahasia'nya bisa lumutan di dlm mobil duluan, hahaha.. ehhmmm tmen2 yg laen gimana ni? uda pd bisa bawa mobil loomm??? ehehehe.. ^^
[iPoEnK] *wAs JuMpiNg aRoUnd* 11:55 PM|
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Sunday, April 10, 2005
~* leot baru ^^ *~
hueh.. akirnya ni leot jadi.. gile, ternyata buat leot itu susah bgt yaaa????? prasaan uda dr jem stenga 4 aku duduk di sini.. slesenya baru sekarang.. ehm brp lama tu ya?? 8 jemmmmm.. tapi puas si.. huah.. ya jelas klo dibandingin leot2 yg laen jauh jelek lah, tp aku puas ^^ gambar backgroundnya lupa ambil di mana, uda ada di my documents entah kpn ngambilnya, prasaan uda lama, beberapa taon yg lalu.. tp bgs backgroundnya, rasanya pas sama suasana hati skrg ini, hehe.. ya wis..
ehm dimohon bantuannya, cara buat supaya klo nulis2 di gambarnya trus tulisannya jd transparan tu gimana ya? trus cara supaya blink2 gitu gimana juga, okeh2 terima kasiih ^^
[iPoEnK] *wAs JuMpiNg aRoUnd* 11:39 PM|
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ga jelas ni aku.. haha.. seneng ngga sedi ngga, datar bgt ye.. hohoho.. duh knyang bgt.. bis mkn di ultah audry di musicafe ta.. =[ tp enak si.. hehe.. lg males ngapa2in ni.. ehm tp dibilang males ngga jg si, duh ga jelas d.. pengen maen basket di timezone.. hueh td ga puas maennya cuma 2 kali.. entah mengapa klo uda maen itu pasti rasanya lbh enak, smua pikiran dipusatin ke ring jdnya uda lupa apa2 dan rasanya puas klo uda masuk dan dpt poin byk ^^ pengen liburrrr.. meski percuma jg sih klo libur pun bkal tetep les pagi2.. hiks.. tp ya mending lah.. heran jg ya sama angie, uda sibuk konser harpa, masih jg les mandarin les inggris les mafia trus skrg dia malah mau les piano, gile.. dari senen sampe minggu les smua.. bisa stress aku klo jd dia.. wong dulu sjak sd tiap ari cuma maen gt ga ada les, ehh pas sma lgs dari senen sampe kamis ada les.. agak tersiksa meski emang bermanfaat seh.. hehe.. ya gt la, kdang aku bingung jg ngapain ya nulis2 di sini.. tp mayan la ada kerjaan.. ehehe.. btw bsk uda senen lg neh, gut lak bwt smuanya yakk =]
[iPoEnK] *wAs JuMpiNg aRoUnd* 4:39 PM|
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Friday, April 08, 2005
~* aLwAyS hEpi ^^ *~
yak, akirnya stlh skian lama ga maen voli, td maen jg.. eh uda seneng2 karna service atasnya masuk trus, pas maen malah keram kaki kirinya.. sbel, haha.. ya gt lah.. trus td pr mat dikumpul, uda seneng2 karna tuh pr uda aku buat dr lama pas tuh guru ngasi tgsnya, ehh ternyata soal yg dikasi blm kucatet sampe abiiis.. jd yg kukerjain ga sampe slese.. sampe cengo pas liat dkasi poin stengah.. nanya deh ke gurunya : "bu, kok ini dipoin? emang kurang apa?" "loh? kan harusnya sampe latihan ke-7.. ini baru ke-5.." JEGERRRR... gondoklah sudah... uda rajin2 niat2 bikin tuh pr, ehhh nyatet soalnya kurang.... ya wis deh, nasib.. hoho.. trus akir2 ini lg gila apel nih, tiap ari makan apel, kmaren 1 hr sampe makan 4 apel, haha.. enak sih ^^ tapi anehnya lg, hari ini aku mkn byk bgt.. pagi2 mi goreng, istirahat skul makan nasi paket yg 5000 byk gt d enak, trus pulang skul mkn mi ibu selasih + 4 pisang goreng + kue laba2, duhh.. uda lama ga makan tu kue, hehehe.. akirnya pas maen voli jd rada enek deh, baru makan uda loncat2, hueh.. tp lmy deh enak ^^ ~aPPLe aDDiCt~
[iPoEnK] *wAs JuMpiNg aRoUnd* 8:16 PM|
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Friday, April 01, 2005
~* sweet story *~
ehm hari ni aku lemes bgt, pulang skul lgs bobo ampe mlm, tdnya si mau lanjutin tdr tp stlh beberapa menit goler2an tetep aja ga msk ke alam mimpi lg.. heran d, uda ampir sminggu kok sakit ga smbuh2 ya, uda minum antibiotik msh aja lemes.. btw, td di buletin frenster aku baca crita di bwh ini yg bikin aku sedi.. :
Jin and I are best frens..we do anything that best frens do together...One day, i realised that i actually fell for him...so i decided to confess to him one nite where we camped with other frens. he readily agreed to be my Boyfren...
Soon we started doing the usual stuffs that couples do, watching movies, having strolls in park, eating together, going to the beach...but life was not as fun when we are still best fren....we're not as close as we used to be when we're still best frens...he doesnt talk much or continued sharing his problems with me...and so i thought he is not a suitable or loving boyfren...but i quietly kept this on my mind...
But since the day he became my boyfren, i would always recieve a small teddy bear from him... At first i thought it was lovely, but then i wondered why he would give me this...
One day, i was walking alone in the park, we both frequent...Then i saw Jin together with another gal there..I crept near them softly overheard him saying "i love u" to the gurl. I was enraged that i run home immediately..Jin never said he love me all the while when wer'e boyfren and gurlfren.
Then at midnite one day, he came to my house and passed me another teddy bear that he used to give me everyday, then said "Sorry, i forgotten to give this to you today." his presence only made mi even more angry so i shouted at him, "Why u alwiz give me this crap? All i want to hear from u is, I love you, that's it, is it too hard???" Jin kept quiet. He took my hand and place the teddy bear on my palm and left..i threw the teddy bear into my wardrobe.
The next day, Jin asked me out. We met at e bus stop near my house...he handed mi a big teddy bear but i threw the teddy to the middle of the road as i still couldnt get over the incident. He remained quiet and went to pick up the teddy. He didnt realised a truck was coming towards him. I shouted repeatedly to warn him but he just turned back and smiled at me,and...........................
*Bang*. "JIN!!!!!!" I cried...the nex minute i know, he was lying on the road, the teddy in his hands covered with blood. He was sent to the hospital but in the end...i still lost him...i've lost him FOREVER...
after attending his funeral, i went back home and took out all the teddy bears he gav me since the day we bcame gfbf...i counted the teddies one by one... 1...2....3...101...230....300..364...and
the last teddy bear he gave me covered with his blood was the 365th...it has alreadly been a year we bcome bfgf...i squeezed the teddy as my tears flowed.... suddenly...
*I love you~*
*I love you~*
i was shocked..i looked at the
teddies...took
one of it, and pressed its tummy..
*I love you~*
i tried each and every teddy he gav me...
*I love you~*
*I love you~*
*I love you~*
*I love you~*
*I love you~*
*I love you~*......................
and the biggest was the last teddy Jin gav me, I squeezed his big tummy...
*felicia, today is our very first anniversary.....i hope to love you, today, tommorow, the day after and forever........I love you....*
i dropped the teddy........ i never realised that Jin had actually told me those
words..every single day....till now... i slowly picked up the teddy and whispered to the teddy's ear.."i love you too, Jin..and i always did........" *[the end]*
sedihnya bkn krn critanya meski memang critanya menyedihkan, tp knp nama cewe yg dpake di situ felicia.. rasanya tu ky bner2 ada yg ngmg hal itu ke aku.. : *felicia, today is our very first anniversary.....i hope to love you, today, tommorow, the day after and forever........I love you....* dan entah mengapa begitu baca rasanya kok 'sakit' yah.. hehe.. bikin shock.. yah.. hal yg sdh berlalu tak kan terulang kembali, hehe..
hueh.. ada 1 hal jg ni yg bgs : "one day luv n frenship met, luv asked : "why do u exist if i already exist?" frenship replied : "to put smile where luv leave tears.."
hehe.. touching yah =] akir2 ini lg dmen sama gitu2an tu, ga ngerti jg d, mau bikin pojok poem ah, hehe..
ya wis deh, buat smua yg lagi sakit juga, get well soon yah =D
[iPoEnK] *wAs JuMpiNg aRoUnd* 10:09 PM|
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Monday, March 28, 2005
~* sakit ni.. =[ .. *~
duh ngantuknya.. hr ni asik deh, pegi ke ta sama cc ling2, spupu yg br balik dr sf.. rame bnerr cuma jln bdua aja bisa2 org pd ngeliat smua, ktwa-ktiwi ga jelas, pdhl umur kita beda jauh looh -> 8 taoon <- tp anehnya nyambung2 aja, haha.. trus snenk soalnya uda dpt kado buat cherz + elly, jd ga usa pusing2 deh nyari kadonya.. btw ipung lg sakit nih.. tenggorokannya ga enak dr kmaren2, klo mkn jd sakit deh.. sbel.. trus gara2 kmaren pas mkn kegigit, skrg jd sariawannnnn... bertambah deh penderitaanku.. jd ga bs mkn byk2 lg, hiks.. klo dah sakit tenggorokan pasti jd ga napsu mkn deh.. =[ uda lama pengen laporan sama si jelek >>ivan<< ehh ktmu sama tu anak susah bner.. ya wis deh jd melampiaskan penderitaan di blog ini, nunggu tu anak ga ol2 jd blogwalking sampe bingung jauh bner dr tmt yg satu ke yg laen ke yg laen lg, haha.. duh dr kmaren aku ngeliat byk baby yg imut2 + lucu2 di berbagai blog ngegemesin dehh.. jd mikir, anakku bkal selucu itu ga ya nanti? *hihi*
oh iya, klo nulis di shoutbox ditulis url nya yah ^^, soalnya saking blogwalking kejauhan jd bingung mau nyari kemana buat blsnya lagi, hehe.. trimakasih buat yg udah mampir2 yahh X]
[iPoEnK] *wAs JuMpiNg aRoUnd* 1:29 AM|
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Saturday, March 26, 2005
~* hePi EaSteR *~
hr ni pdhl dah bgn pagi si, pasang alarm jem 7 niatnya sih mo pegi les mafia, ehh pas bgn ujan gede, ya wis deh mls, bobo lagi deh, huehue.. tau2 pas bgn uda siang gt, ampe kagett.. (ga tralu kaget sih emang sring bgn siang, hihi..) tp aneh, biasanya klo ke greja dr rumah tu bs stenga jeman gara2 macet, ehh ni hr brangkat dr rmh jem 5 krg 20 menit, tau2 pas nyampe jem 5 krg 5 menit! jd cuman 15 menit doankk.. aneh bner, pdhl di rmh aku uda mls2an buat pegi gara2 dah telat.. ehehhe.. bis dr situ ke puri deh, jln2 nyari kado buat sherly + elly tp ga dpt di sana, jd ya ntar aja d nyari di tmt laen.. pas mo pulang hp bunyi, dpt sms ngaku2nya tmen mantan aku, trus ktnya mo dtg ke rmh, jelas aja aku kaget stengah mati, aneh bgt uda mlm gt trus bilangnya uda di dpn rumahh.. ehh ternyata spupuku, ci ling2, isengin akuuu.. amplop deh ni jantung dah mo copot.. haha..
o ya td dpt sms dr spupuku si sunk2 lucu d :
Kemarin telah berpulang ke rumah BAPA, KEKASIH kita, YESUS KRISTUS, dgn pesan : "Ga usah melayat, hari minggu GUE bangkit"
~*HePi EaSteR smuaaa ^^*~
[iPoEnK] *wAs JuMpiNg aRoUnd* 10:16 PM|
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*PoJoK SeNi*
*11 aPriL 2005*
its not enough to see with eyes.. we need to see with hearts
singing about a game that im not sure when it began
whats hard to get is hard to let go
believe me if i said that we are the one who can make the change
dont run away from the fact, it still wont change anything at all
what to say if you're upset but you're the one who makes that and we both feel sad?
sadness is exist due to things that dont happen like the way you want them to be
my power is to be loved, but my weekness is love that i've got
feel lonely without your presence, but more lonely without your jokes
*1 aPriL 2005*
Coz we live in the world of Pinocchios
truth or lies not seen as black and white
hipocracy on lips and nose
megalomenia in lungs and heart
That's why we live in the world of Pinocchios
too fragile to be us
being ignored is too tough
fake smiles fake tongue
*28 MaReT 2005 : fOr ChErZ*
bEiNg sIngLe iSnt bAd eNouGh
bUt beInG iGnoRed iS qUiTe ToUgh
*12 MaRet 2005*
Tak hanya kata dapat berucap bila sudah tak bermakna
Tak hanya hati dapat bersuara bila luka mengiris raga
Tak hanya dikau dapat membenci bila telah kecewa
Tak hanya dikau dapat meratap bila telah patah
Rasa kan berkata, waktu kan berbicara
*15 Juni 2004*
for evry breath i take, i think of you
for evry smile you make, i will smile too
put away all the rest, enough for me just to see you
for evry joke you make, i will laugh at
for evry song you sing, i will be glad
release all what i feel, if you're fine it will be great
nothing to lose nothing to regret
no winner or loser in this kind of game
enough to know you're happy
enough to know you're there
*22 Juli 2003*
Risalah hati bila tak disapa semilir sejuk
Beku sudah semua kenangan, dimakan oleh sang waktu
Jika takdir membilah hati,
apa daya lidah berucap, apa daya bola mata membanjir
Setidaknya jadilah pembalut luka, untuk melepas apa yang terukir
Karna tak selamanya perasaan insan tertancap pada satu badan
Sebab telah terbangun penyesalan tak bertepi
*7 Juli 2003*
Flower behind the wall
nobody knows what she's been thinking of
nobody cares about what she wants to be
only her who knows the truth
about her one-day-memory
only her who will keep it through the nite
Flower behind the wall
no one knows what she's been waiting for
in tears she smiles
in fears she hopes
for a better day she'll get
for all reasons she's got
*30 DeSeMbeR 2003*
WaKtu UntUk JaTuH cIntA HaNya 1 dEtiK,
TaPi wAkTu uNtuK MeLuPaKaNnyA aDaLaH sELaManYa